Just had a coffee/tea meeting with my Caribbean professor from last semester
it went well. Last semester, on the last day, she had said we should get together because I’m one of the few younger people she could see hanging out with. I was obviously flattered, but my paranoia/self-consciousness made me think I wouldn’t actually e-mail her to get together. Well, since I’m trying to just do better this year and it is January, the month of improvement, I decided to give it a shot. So I e-mailed her last week and we set a meeting for today. I was pretty nervous. I figured that after she hung out with me she’d realize she was so so so wrong. But, at the end she said we should do it again, at least once a month.
Yay! See, I need to stop assuming that people will not enjoy my company/like me/find me interesting. I just feel like people who don’t know me well find me so interesting (or so they say) but I feel like if they were to get to know me they’d realize I was just less than average, boring, uninteresting, etc. These assumptions make it difficult for me to try and meet new people or get together with people I’m somewhat acquainted with.
I’m happy it went well. I’m proud of myself for going through with it. Just like I’m proud of myself for going to AS220 today for the Slam/Encyclopedia Show/Open Mic tonight all by myself. Maybe someday I’ll be able to be proud of myself for going to a show and talking up someone and making a friend that way. BUT LITTLE STEPS DESERVE CREDIT, TOO!
